darling, it's all an in between
words that come into being melting through my fingers slipping from my tongue like ice that melts under this heating sun words that hold all the pain the ache for love the ache for remembering what it feels like when the sun holds your soul words that roam my skin that wander through my pores in this in-between searching for the prayers that i forgot how to speak searching for what brews the love I pour drops of water fall in me like rocks heavy, covering it all trying to remember how to breathe and i know the space opens up once more and in it i get lost like a baby like a child like an adult moving through the mud and it's summer and it's hot my skin loves it my soul loves it something calls my attention in a moment, i am gone without knowing where i've gone or where i've stayed i melted and molded into shapes a thousand of them it's all a game a fable, a story, a myth it's all real or so we think there's beauty my eyes can't see blinded by the glare of my ache to be held and i am held and i hear the screams and i hear the pain yet i can't feel it in me and i do and i laugh i search for my tears i wanna go back to my ocean i pray to the wind to take me with him to the mountains covered in snow for a short moment to feel the crispness of their silence creeping through the cracks of the shores of the mountain range creeping through the cracks of my own pores to borrow another silence to borrow another love for a moment to remember it has been in me all along my feet keep walking this body keeps going going everywhere i've collected the pieces of my mind and my shattered skin i've collected the scales of my cells shedding leaving me behind i now blow them away like seeds they roam their new ground they become someone else something else rocks mountains a lake, it cools me down a laugh, it takes me out out of where, i wonder bubbles songs the sun shines i go back in into where i can see into where i can feel it's dark now the night once again the wind once again i am dry i am home have i arrived? have i returned? i never left it's a two way street it opens into thousand more and it folds into itself salt and pepper i grind all over me water inside of me and in my skin can i stay submerged for a little longer? can i remain in there? maybe there i will find the remaining pieces find the traces of your love desperately i look up i look down i look around please pause — just stop something in me screams a voice shattering — and another hysterically laughing no one is around where am i? when will we leave? how will we find one another? i've forgotten how to pray my tongue says listen deeply, it's all silent prayers they are in-between the dirt of your fingernails they are inside the cuts on your feet how to remain sane? it's all the same life is taken for granted beauty is all forgotten blessed days blessed lives a privilege to exist i taste the pain in your lips let me love your grief how can you ever even bear to hold your screams? it's sunny, it's warm nothing else seems to matter when they coexist in the pores of the rain that once cleansed my being face scratched hair pulled bitten and licked now it's all foggy clouds are brewing in the distance the sun is heating the winds are blowing bringing back the words lost returning from their journey give them to the fire don't even read them don't speak them out loud they are what you've become you can see them through every walk it is your body they are your soul a song returns don't let it go keep it with you wherever you go i am here i have never left no need to see me no need to hold me i can't be touched or tasted yet i am always searched for where have you gone? return home, my love i am under your feet i grow through you i run alongside your veins and the glitter your eyes make when we find each other you smoke me up trying to catch a glimpse in the fumes it's all green, it's a small moment just like you, we will fall we will decompose we will become soil we will be sticky but none of that matters now we are green now we are we are big we are we always are drop drop drop drop into my pores i will take you for another walk this time we will stay in a place for you to bow your head to hear your heart to grow your wings to shatter the winds to return your skin to fly free it is yet to be for now, breathe it all in the pores of your skin the rocks in your eyes the light from your heart the sky cupped in the tea you drink the ground underneath your feet breathe your earth receive your mountain stay know it is all okay the pain and the aches the love and the ashes the smiles and the grasses there's flowers there's bees crack open fall into pieces over and over again remain in one whole piece to shatter it all over again listen to the empty nights accompanied by the silent winds and the songs of the ocean the salt dipped in your hair there's no ashes in your brain there's ache there's longing there's clarity there's life there's death there's noise there's silence return stay my darling it's all an in-between
gracias por leerme - thanks for reading me <3